Chapter: 5 Facing The Consequences Of A Broken Wall
“Whoever has no rule over his own spirit Is like a city broken down, without walls”
(Proverbs 25:28).
This person is simply regarded as a defenseless fellow. Someone, who has cast off restraints and has become vulnerable to attacks or oppression from foreign influences that may lead to some form of addictions, and good examples of such people are drug addicts, alcoholics etc. These have a high rate of anger explosions.
Not long after making up with my wife, a serious headache began which I never experienced before I left the house in anger. Let me draw out something at this juncture. The cheapest price to pay at any given period of time in order to solve any future problem is usually in obedience, no matter how sacrificial it is. The price for obedience is always the cheapest and especially at the early stages compared to the heavy cost at the latter end when damages would have already set in. This is also very true in cases of ill-health. A stich in time saves nine.
- How many times has God warned you to ‘stay action’ or desist from displaying your anger towards your wife, husband and other neighbours as the case may be?
The splitting headache persisted throughout the night till the following morning. By morning I had pains all over my body and that was when I discovered that I had fever. I still went on my knees and told God how sorry I was and asked Him to heal me, of which He did and I was able to preach the next day being Sunday.
I remembered making the altar call for those who needed healing after the service had ended, and was shocked to see many people who had been afflicted with sickness as they stood on the healing line. We got back home after the service and I was thanking God over the testimonies and declared that satan is a liar. That night the fever came back on me stronger than the first time and I shivered under the cover of the blanket, I couldn’t muster enough faith to fight this bombardment as I used to. At a time I told my wife I wanted to go to Ropheka hospital, but then the night was far gone, and secondly I didn’t have strength to drive. By God’s grace I managed to survive till I was able to see the doctor the next morning, and got better within few days.
Journey To The Place Of Treasures
I had a dream. My wife and I prayed some warfare prayer on Friday/Saturday morning of the new week before we slept. We woke up later and shared the dream we differently had about a particular person, and proceeded further to pray from around twenty minutes after four o’clock until around five thirty on Saturday morning, and then slept back again. By the time I woke up at six o’clock, I discovered that I had a dream just within a space of thirty minutes. God gave me a dream to explain to me how I had failed in knowing how to handle this notorious problem of anger. I am the least qualified to take up a pen and write on anger, because, if not for God’s grace, I would have submitted under the influence of anger to allow satan derail my marriage. But because of God’s love, He made sure I went through the Holy Spirit School in order to learn the lessons in the curriculum of marriage. This book is just simply the work of grace. I have long being in the crucible of God over this subject of anger.
- I have always said that marriage is the only institution where couples, right from the onset of their admission into the holy matrimony are given their marriage certificates the very day they are wedded.
- Secondly, marriage is another school where couples continue to graduate over some marriage subjects and never finish graduating.
- Thirdly, the first course which runs throughout the marriage life that remains compulsory for each partner is the subject of PATIENCE. I believe (in my own opinion) that husbands must possess this quality more than their wives. Patience is more of an understanding, very hopeful and a love-word than a tormenting or suffering and enduring word. (1 Pet 3:7).
The Dream
I found myself in a fairly big house with several rooms, meant for guests in transit to lodge in, in order for them to take some rest before proceeding on their journey. This place seemed to be far away from the city as all the hustle and bustle normally found in cities were absent, and there were not too many people around. This was the kind of place I found myself and I could not tell for how long I had lodged there. But one thing that was in my subconscious was the excitement of my transition which was tied to the whole expedition.
The scene changed and I found myself going somewhere with a key in my hand. The key was the key to the place where treasures were hidden. At some point I started looking for this key because I had quite a lot of things in my hand; but later found it dangling from the key ring and was about to fall off from in between what! was holding in my hand. I was expectant.
Treasures Are Hard To Find
Yes! I must see this thing I was looking for. Real treasures are not found on the surface of the earth, but deep in the ground and mostly down the earth crust. I proceeded and got to a place which I found completely deserted and forgotten. There were concrete steps with an embankment on one side. I mean plenty little steps that ran down to the place of my quest-the treasure house. They all have prominent signs of disintegration with different color shades of faded mixture of grey, green, yellow and black, thus depicting wear and tear due to long exposure to different kinds of weather-sun, rain, etc.
I concluded before descending the flight of steps that I had to be very careful otherwise one would find himself tumbling down to self-destruct. But because I was eagerly looking for something, I decided ‘I’m going down there! I was very curious. I didn’t have a foreknowledge of where I was going, but only knew I was looking for something that I thought must be of great value. Deep inside of my heart I was yearning for something and this brought about an excitement that flooded my subconscious for this great expedition.
So I started descending these dilapidated concrete steps which had some already dislodged from their joints. This I did with great caution. And like I knew it, my foot slipped at a time and I was off-balance, and almost rolled downwards; but luckily with extreme care I regained my stability and resumed the descent. I got to a particular section and found myself between some blocks which also carried some other ones; with great strain I squeezed myself through those blocks carefully avoiding touching anyone of them with my body so the whole structure wouldn’t collapse on me. My eagerness to discover something saw me through and I continued down the steps.
Eureka!
Then I got to the bottom of the stairs and found a big entrance to a cave. I entered and started looking for something as I did, I began to see traces of treasures precious stones, shinning stones: pot all around but jug a little here and a little there. So I started getting excited in my spirit as I was picking them up. Deep inside of me, a was like ‘Their are more! There are more!
As I continued to search while advancing inside this cave, I discovered more treasures and each time my excitement became increasingly heightened at the same time. After a while, my whole being was bursting with ecstasy as I discovered that the whole ground was full of these shining precious stones (treasures). After a while, my eyes and mouth widened in amazement thus describing the exuberant joy (Greek: agalliases) I felt in my spirit as I had so much in both hands. As this joy hit a crescendo in my heart, all I could scream was, ‘Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah’. (You might call it EUREKA I have found it)-the treasures I was looking for.
Ob No! God Changed The scene
The Master script writer, who also remained the Ultimate Teacher in the whole process, changed the scene for another lemon still in my dream.
Beloved! I want to thank you for following me to this point, and as you hold on to what the Lord has
Ministered to you thus far I still want to create your indulgence that you pay close attention to the next event in the same dream which I am about to pen down for additional revelation. This is a great lesson for us all and I sincerely pray that God will help us overcome the many dangers that satan has set outside the limited region of anger in Jesus name
The next scene was nothing but a proof from God that He wasn’t through with me yet as I needed to da something urgently against anger. Anger is the only thing that can be comparable to a sub-marine because of its tendencies of going under unnoticed, and reappearing just at the slightest provocation
When we allow anger to go under-into our subconscious like a submarine because we fail to deal with it at the right time, it resurfaces after doing some damage to us rather surreptitiously..
The scene was changed again because the Master scriptwriter-God Almighty, who has the vision and my spirit as the writing board, was ready to drive home the previous lesson, that He insisted I must pass in order to be successful and move to the next level.
